No more Surprises... PLEASE!

Well I'm not very good at this journaling/blogging thing. I have also been slacking some on the prayer. Before today what I would have said was that through this what I have noticed is that when I say Surprise me God is that I am more aware of what is going on around me and how God is involved and present. Today I got a bad surprise- while I know in my head that God isn't purposely causing me this pain my heart says differently and asks why? and where are you? and do you really love me?

Surprise Me - Here we go

Day 1
There are a lot of first for me here. Figuring out this blogging thing is one of them.
After listening to the service on CD last night I said those three words to God today and also prayed that I would have the courage to hear and follow/be open God's surprises. I was very hesitant to start this after having many bad surprises lately, I wasn't sure I really wanted to be surprised again. After reading Michael's blogg, I realized that I too am playing into that lie. I'm interested to see what happens these next 30 days. So far nothing surprising, but I have been much more aware of what is happening around me.